This is going to be harder than it looks.

Well. I haven't started my project and already I'm freaking out. In a subdued, quiet, internal sort of way. My life is full. When am I going to find time to do this outside thing? I need to get over my all or nothing thinking and remember my one-step-at-a-time goal. I'm doing this because, even though my life may seem full, it's not. I'm missing something amazing in my daily walk and that something is outside. In nature. Actually, nature itself.

Upon reflection I can see that I have completely shut out any idea that the great outdoors might have something to offer this wanderer. I think that what the indoors has to offer me is seclusion and comfort. Although many would say that I'm an extrovert, I am truly an introvert. I need alone-time so that I can get myself together, be comforted, regain strength, and just plain old feel like me. And I choose to take this me time inside. It's been this way for a long time.

But tomorrow starts a new chapter. My four goals for the month of May are:

1. Get outside already

I want to spend 10 minutes outside every day. Someone told me that my time outside needs to be spent looking at nature, quietly contemplating. But I don't think that's true - at least not yet. If I can get outside and read or journal or walk or ride bikes with Andrew - any of that is good enough for me and my goal. I'm also not going to get too frustrated if I miss a day here or there. Like Gretchin Rubin and "The Happiness Project", I am going to chart my progress - give myself a visual.

2. Read some Annie Dillard

I've always wanted to read something by Annie Dillard and here's my chance. Do you have a suggestion for an author I could read that would be connected to this project? Please share.

3. Plant something

I have two great planters full of dead, dried weeds. They were given to me by my mother about 5 years ago and held the most beautiful flowers. Now they sit in the back and look lonely and depressed (as much as a planter can). I'm going to pull them around to the front yard and plant something new and colorful in them. I think seeing them every time I come home will really cheer me. Of course, a sub-goal is to water them so that they stay alive as long as possible. This may be a challenge.

4. Blog

This blogging thing is new to me and I love it but I'm worried I may let it fall by the wayside. Part of this goal will, in June, include uploading pics from my outdoor adventures but I'm not there yet.

So there we have it. I'm still freaking out but ready nonetheless. Wish me luck.